Ingred's Journal Entry 8: Tea and Fungus

''The pages are written clumsy and with an unfamiliar ink. ''

Wow. I feel like I've made a fool of myself. Scratch that, I've definitely made a fool of myself. My lack of... socializing over the many years has really put a dent in things. I... don't know how to talk to these people. How to connect with them. The one person I could relate to is GONE now, and the others don't take me very seriously. Things here are so much different than in Aima. There's no... ''order. ''I don't know whether to be happy for the (relative) freedom or upset that the law here is held in low regard. My attempt to be more credible has been sent down the chamber pot. I put a lot of effort into making those papers, damn it. I understand that they aren't official documents but they would... make me feel better. You always make those for your patients...

It hurts.

To think that K didn't even give a shit. I feel insulted. so much for that, I suppose.

I don't know what I'm doing. Here or... in general. I feel stressed, even after the party. I hope the others don't notice. I don't want to look weak. I gotta get myself together.

Speaking of which. That party had mixed results. I mean that tea was very cool (I'm glad that Lily's father gave me seeds for the plant) but I didn't expect the others to have such high tolerance to it. I was hoping we would be able to bond over that. Fuck it, I don't think they cared. So much for sharing things. And Seipora suddenly shouting at Anthos? That was both unexpected and uncomfortable. Didn't necessarily ruin the mood but it did leave a bitter taste. I get that what Anthos did wasn't very cool, but his intentions weren't harmful by any means. I'm surprised he didn't get stabbed by Marisol. I think she mentioned something about wine, but it kind of got lost in the weird "cloud of sounds". Anyways... The rest of it was nice. Seipora's art (I think they call it a "tah-too?") was very neat. I'm surprised they have skin ink in such a variety of colors. It was nice to have a shopping buddy too, even though It slipped my mind that she can't lift weight like the others.

side note:

The fungus that Anthos ate didn't work. I mean, he was out like a light but I don't think it resolved his problem. I'll have to do some actual research, I think. Figures I can't trust third parties. Not in a region that is entirely dependent on magic for its medicine.

He's an idiot. It amuses me. Also, the doors here are really something. Those interior locks work very well. I hope that Anthos doesn't mind me using his ink, but he seemed to want me here. An odd sudden change of mind... He could have just used his stone to message me rather than stumbling to my front door. I- I don't know what I would have done if he had collapsed outside his room. Dragged him back, perhaps, but what a pain in the ass that would be. I hope he's not too mad at me in the morning. Although fuck it, I don't really care. No... I do. Marisol has the right mindset, though. I wish I could care less about these sorts of things. I'm going to be tired tomorrow. Dang it.